Published on December 31, 2015
I didn’t really get to “enjoy” Christmas. I missed all the reunions and year-end parties. I don’t remember the last time I set foot in a mall. I didn’t experience the usual holiday rush. And to say that I live in a cave will be the biggest understatement of the year. But surprisingly, my heart is overflowing with so much joy. For four years, my husband and I would flash our smiles in front of the camera for the mandatory “Merry Christmas from our family to yours” photos. Hidden behind those smiles was a void that needed to be filled. For four years, our Christmas wishes were the same - to have our own home and our darling Little Kolokoy. For the longest time, we had been claiming every New Year that it would be OUR YEAR. Finally, through God’s grace, 2015 was indeed OUR YEAR! Our Christmas was quiet, but it was the happiest because we got to spend it in our own home with Zayne. And for the first time, our big smiles genuinely radiate joy, no more hints of sadness and longing.
It might be a simple family portrait for some. It wasn’t even taken in some fancy studio. But for us, it is the greatest testament of God’s never-ending love and generosity.
If you’re reading this post and you happen to be experiencing your worst Christmas or you feel that 2015 has been your worst year, wipe away those tears. Believe in God’s promise that better days are coming. Believe that your breakthrough is happening soon. Believe that our God is a faithful god. And so as we bid 2015 goodbye, I do hope 2016 will be so much better for all of us. To jumpstart your year, let our Little Kolokoy tickle your hearts through this photo!