A Lesson on Patience

I am going through a lot of emotions right now. Things are not going out the way I wanted them to be. There are times when I feel so worthless and unrewarded for all my hard work. I have always been patient. Or so I think. I have high tolerance with pain and I can very well control my anger. But there are just times that I just burst. But I always make sure that I burst with grace. But lately I came to realize that I will never ever benefit from my anger.

Lately, I feel that I am being pushed to a wall. No matter how hard I fight back, I am just being pushed harder. And today, I tried to compose myself. I saw two people from my MSN contacts with the status “Patience is a virtue.” Another friend has her YM status saying “Patience is a must.” It’s already a cliché but I know that this holds true. And I know that there are other people who are going through the same predicament as I am. I am not contesting that patience is a virtue. It is indeed a must. But I chose to put this as my status:

“Beware the fury of a patient man.”

This quote from Publilius Syrus describes that even a person blessed with great fortitude still has a boiling point. No doubt I can be patient. But don’t push me too hard.

Patience is playing its tricks on me. It has always been a wonder to me why no matter how hard I try, I still get nothing in return. I’m still unnoticed and unrewarded. Yesterday, Kriska asked why good things happen to undeserving people. I told her that it might be true because BETTER things happen to deserving people. I only said that. But I don’t know how to live with it. I still marvel at how some people can get away with being bossy, how someone can take the credit that does not belong to him and how they blame somebody else the things that they should be accountable for. Then I found myself feeling light-hearted today when I first read this quote.

“There will be a time when loud-mouthed, incompetent people seem to be getting the best of you. When that happens, you only have to be patient and wait for them to self destruct. It never fails.” - Richard Rybolt

So I will wait! Wait for these people to self-destruct. And for now, I will be more patient.